Thursday, July 06, 2006

The pain in my heart

festers as tumescent old wounds are pried open and scratched. I am the sum of choices made, options discarded, chances blown away. Today, my cloistered world is blue, black and green.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference

(anon)


Bawl. Repeat above. Internalize. Move on.

9 comments:

30in2005 said...

Sometimes bawling is good. and mostly internalising is good too. Pain however is not so good. Hope the sun shines soon!

bibliobibuli said...

poor jane! *hugs*

Anonymous said...

awwwww...

HUGS Jane!! take it easy, yea? I've had a very crazy week too. I'm so glad the weekend's finally arrived! have a great one yourself, yes? :)

Sunrayz said...

Awwwww Jane...bawl to your hearts content abd don't force the internalisation process. It will happen, with time...
*Hugs*

Anonymous said...

I forgot where I read this before but it is really true. All three things are extremely hard to do. It takes a lot to move on, change things and know the difference.

Lydia Teh said...

Hope things look up soon.

Mint Chutney said...

I wish I was there to pour tea and replenish the supply of tissue.

*hugs*

Anonymous said...

yikes! this must have something to do with the big T. hugs, hugs

Jane Sunshine said...

Thank you all for the kind support, virtual hugs and tea. I feel better now, not completely, but better.